I have recently launched my Sex & Soul Membership in German and soon will launch it in English - that's very exciting for me! It was one of my dreams for such a long time to create a loving, supportive community of women who are on the same path, a taboo-free space to learn about sexuality, female empowerment and how to truly thrive as a woman. I want to break taboos and teach practices & long lost secrets to feel liberated and empowered in being a woman: owning who we are, connected to our bodies and our sexual power and living without pain or shame about bleeding, sex or any other magical part of womanhood!

"You can't force something into love." I tried to love myself for so many years through forcing myself to love me, and for judging myself for not loving me. I then once read this sentence and realized how I was blocking myself from true love: love doesn't force and love doesn't judge. I kind of had to learn - or rather remember - what loving truly means. And that made such a huge shift on how I related to myself and others - and it brought me actual, real self-love (and true love in my partnership as well).

My little girl - every challenge you ́re going through and every pain on your way is only a sacred doorway to your deeper truth and your sexual and spiritual awakening. On the other side of every difficulty, there is even deeper love, power and pleasure waiting for you. All the things you think you are struggling with will turn out to be gifts, and they will lead you to your purpose. You are always so protected and loved, even - especially - when it doesn't feel like it.

My sexuality and my self-worth. I had such low self esteem, I criticized everything about me and felt deep shame for all that I was. I experienced a myriad of physical and psychological symptoms for many years - from acne, chronic fatigue, many food intolerances to an anxiety disorder, depressive episodes and complete disconnection from and numbness of my body. I struggled with toxic relationships, money, being happy and knowing my path. It was really painful to be me for some years.

I tried loving affirmations, meditation, yoga & eating super healthy but it didn't really do much. Then through some synchronicities, I found somatic work, trauma release & healing through self pleasure & sexual energy. THAT was the golden key for me. I found out that sexual (and other) trauma was the root cause of all that I experienced. For the first time I understood it was not my fault that I suffered all these things, it was just my body and soul ́s reaction to trauma. And only through going deep into my body, deep into my subconscious & addressing my sexuality as well, I was able to truly heal (from ALL that I mentioned). I discovered Tantra, Taoism, somatic work, hypnosis, embodiment & ritual work, modern trauma healing techniques and practices that truly helped me transform on a body and energetic level (where the trauma was stuck). And now this is exactly what I teach other women and what my work is all about: turning pain, stuckness & trauma into empowerment, freedom & pleasure.

That I’ve studied Psychology & Anthropology, and have a Master of Science degree in Medical Anthropology - for my master thesis, I conducted research on the (healing) effects of plant medicine on one’s sense of self. And that I love hard & dark techno and raving in dark, sweaty Berlin clubs for hours. There's nothing that connects me with my wild, primal side as dancing to this music. It speaks to a very ancient part of me - it feels deeply ritualistic and cleansing. Good, deep techno has the same effect on me like shamanic drumming. So besides my "lighter" soft side, I also enjoy diving into these spaces every now and then.